mother had a dream/first she was deep underwater/she wanted to come out/when she did she saw her/aura went away/started writing at the desk/shot only from the back of it/right-handed at the desk/all the feelings in the sphere of tension superior/like everyone else i can feel the core/our core/seeing past all the hate we are flowers of a stranger plant/feeling more alive/can’t believe i have to try/numb to the marrow/living in the sky/once i’d broken free i thought that i could leave/i was dreaming of the sea back in the 20^th century/consider it a blessing that i see so much complexity/in the heavens i rule my world in entirety/but down here on earth it’s all tension superior/i thought that i knew meaning/i thought that i had purpose/i wish i wasn’t dreaming/it’s coming to the surface/tension superior/it’s a superior kind of tension/i dispense what i’m expressing/i bench-press depression on a mike learning daily lessons in my mind/my mike compressions are designed to bring the brightest vision to the blind/i’m unsigned but still feel inclined to unwind and leave the stress behind/within the confines of my mind that i constantly climb to save my sanity/how can it be so fucking hard to just be me?/the bad assassin casualty couldn’t see a flashback as mad as me/i’ve forgotten more rhymes than i’ve written/but it’s so fitting my flow fits tighter than a mitten/i’m forgiven for my past/i’m still swimming with the sharks/a talented fool with too much class/i missed a lot of school and had to educate my own dumb arse.